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I have been thinking a lot today. In fact (if you all didn't know I talk talk talk and never stop talking..) but today, there was a silence. I didn't talk at work, I spaced out half of the day, and I cried at 11 am (it was 10 am Arkansas time). In fact for the first time in my life, I was speechless. I stepped out of the office to have a moment of silence for our sweet Amanda. I prayed to God, knowing he was taking care of her. I pictured her dancing and spinning and smiled, and for some reason I felt a warmth.

I never knew I could care so much about someone I have never met. In fact, I have never been a forum type of girl (funny huh?), because I just never believed you could become friends with someone over the internet. But, I was wrong. And it seems funny to me, to feel as if I knew Amanda, but she shared her life with everyone, making everyone feel close to her and feel like they have known her forever. There is so much Amanda has taught me, so much Amanda had made me realize, and so much she has made me change about myself.

When I first heard Amanda's story there was something that drew me to her. Something about her I admired so much. I knew that I HAD to get to know this amazing woman. So I started talking with Jan about her. When I found out I was going to Conneticut to meet Chris Richardson. The girls and I knew we had to have him do somethings to make her smile, because we knew she would have been to ALL the dryer tours POSSIBLE if she could have. We wanted her to feel like she was there, and she wasn't missing out on anything. When we were in CT, Amanda was very sick, I kept praying for her, as I always did. I just kept hoping we could get everything to her. We were so happy when we knew she had recieved the Package. For the first time in my life, I didn't feel so selfish, and it felt good to know I put a smile on her face, even if it was for 2 seconds.

I always would talk to my girls (21, and xxsamantha) about when we were all going to travel to meet her. Unfortunately, that did not happen. Money was tight, and we wanted to go when we could meet Jan down there, and meet them both. It breaks my heart to know that can not happen. But, I know she is around us, I know I will meet her someday and I will be able to thank her. I am looking forward to the "walk" and I will be honored to be known as one of Amanda's Idols. I am looking forward to meeting some of my other richsisters and doing it together as the family and team we are.

Although I never got to meet Amanda, I know that I will meet her a long the way. I know I will get to know her more and more through Jan and hopefully Tammy when I meet them. Because I know they both will carry her with them. After that day comes I will feel I got to meet Amanda, maybe not ALL of Amanda, but parts of Amanda, that typed words over a computer could never revail.

I can promise you this, when the good lord decides it is my time to go, Amanda will be one of the first people on my mind. And, I hope she will be there at the gates greeting me, saying, "oh so your that goofy, chris richardson loving, crazy girl from New Hampshire". And when that time comes I can only hope I remember to thank her for all she has taught me, and how she, has had an impact on my life forever. She got me dreaming, believing and hoping, making me see that I am the strength behind everything that involves my life, and if I just Hope and Believe I can Achieve. She got me to reconcile with the lord (for a long time I just stopped believing, just gave up on my faith) and she gave that back to me. I could not thank her enough. She taught me that my life is a breeze, not to sweat the small stuff, and to follow my dreams no matter how out of reach they may be! (Like co-writting a song with Chris Richardson, or becoming FAMOUS by sharing my writings with the world). She taught me what a true IDOL is. She is my inspiration to do better in life.

I was so upset when I realized I didnt have an orange shirt today, but I wore orange on my nails...=] wore my blue jeans to work, when I wasn't supposed to (they understood though)... Me 21 and xx tied letters to balloons for her and sent them off to heaven. I thanked her in it, explaining that I wish I could have thanked her face to face.

I don't know if she can read them, or if she can really hear me ramble, but I do know one thing, God, has an amazing angel by his side, and he always did the only difference now is she is with him in heaven...

(sorry for rambling...I am just, sooo I don't even know how to explain it)

Rest Peacefully Amanda Rhea Jones
You are forever in my heart... Hope+Believe=Achieve is forever tattoo'd onto my heart...

Candle

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